October 11, 2022
On Tuesday, Dr. Minneo from the Long Beach Animal Emergency Vet called. They had test results on the mass in D's cheek.
It is squamous cell carcinoma.
It's exactly the aggressive, advanced cancer Amanda had predicted when we first found it on Thursday.
With expensive, aggressive radiation therapy, D might have 1-14 months left.
If we just do palliative, expensive radiation therapy...maybe 1-4 months.
I don't know if we're going to do any of that. We can't really afford it, and, as is usually the case with these types of things in animals, treatment is hard on them and does not really provide for a good quality of life during those extended months.
I'm not ready to lose her.
But i never will be.
D has such a long, weird history of medical issues and beating the odds, both in good and bad ways (stomatitis, for example? Removing the teeth cures it in 99% of cases. D was the 1%). We thought she might beat the odds again and this would just turn out to be a fluid-filled abscess or something.
It's not.
I'm having a hard time concentrating on anything else. We have so much else going on, and i just can't find it in me to focus on any of that.
I love this cat so much.
I posted on Facebook that the love i share with this cat is the purest love i've ever experienced, and i meant that. It's not encumbered by any human standards, any complicated emotions or any weird life events or character flaws. There has just always been D, and me, and D has problems and i fix them and she snuggles me and loves me unconditionally and with her entire tiny little heart and all of her fluff.
I don't know what to do.
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